Tag: Poem

• losing priveledge

  You are losing something

  The extra you have isn’t yours

  It was unfair when was given to you

  Distributed unequally at birth

  And now it feels unfair to loose it

  Like you’re being stolen from

  But you are returning stolen goods

  The fair part is you sharing

  Giving up the extra you have

  So that everyone can have some.

  2024-01-01

  Poem, poetry

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• health I never had

  I see health in others

  And miss a life I can’t know

  An imagined experience

  I grieve for what I never got

  I morn the life I’m missing

  The freedom I don’t have

  Settling into a compromise

  With my imperfect body

  I’m frustrated by new symptoms

  Trapped in this tightening trap

  As my body betrays me

  I adjust to the new normal

  But I can’t live in grief

  So I give myself space to feel

  Light a candle for my loss

  And then turn back to the life I have.

  2023-12-25

  Poem, poetry

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• I want a wife

  Wish I could find a man to be my wife

  Who’s totally devoted to my needs

  Gives me endless free labor

  Asks for the bare minimum in return

  A man focused on my desire

  To be on display when I choose

  Who’s aware I can replace him

  With a younger, more eager version

  Is happily barefoot in the kitchen

  Making our house a home

  Sacrifices his own needs

  Because my needs come first

  And he would know his place

  Because I gave him my name

  A wife is the reward I deserve

  My prize and proof I won at life.

  2023-12-18

  Poem, poetry

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• cleave people from the herd

  We’re your sickly and old

  The ones that can’t keep up

  Falling behind in the race

  The ones you sacrifice

  You see us as disposable

  Or you choose to be blind

  Except you are setting yourself up

  For a future of being culled, too

  When you forget compassion and care

  You ignore that we’re in your herd

  You may choose to see us

  But we can’t help but see you.

  2023-12-11

  Poem, poetry

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• a moderated life

  I was a active kid and also sickly
  I played rough and then later suffered
  Never fit in school so I was a loner
  But my family friends played with me

  I had a social group as a teenager
  And I matched their social energy
  I stated up all night and partied
  And then crashed when I went home

  It was in my 30s that I saw the pattern
  When I act like other people I pay
  And the cost is tripple the fun
  More days lost than fun gathered

  I learned to live a moderate life
  Chose stability in my symptoms
  I grieved that life wasn’t like others
  Gave up on a life I can’t have.

  2023-12-04

  Poem, poetry

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• not trying to blend

  What if I am cringy

  A background player

  That everyone laughs at

  Self aware that I don’t fit in

  But also comfortable in myself

  And that confidence shines through

  Because I don’t hate myself

  I’d rather embrace my awkward

  Than chase someone else’s ideal

  And maybe some people mock me

  But that tells me who they are

  It doesn’t affect who I choose to be.

  2023-11-27

  Poem, poetry

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• not dying today

  My symptoms aren’t acute

  They’re persistent and uncomfortable

  Just not urgent or life threatening

  I have treatements that work

  Not a cure but a way to manage

  And succesfull lifestyle changes

  That make my symptoms less

  But you can’t call me healthy

  I live with symptoms everyday

  I’m surviving, not thriving

  Some days are less pain

  But I can’t imagine pain free

  I’m not well but I’m also not dying today.

  2023-11-20

  Poem, poetry

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• not a brave face

  In a culture where tough is praised

  And showing pain is weak

  Then I’m considered a whiner

  Because sometimes I name it

  Instead of living in painful silence

  I defy loneliness and issolation

  Take comfort from those around me

  By bravely sharing my vulnerability

  Admitting that living sometimes hurts

  Speaking up can’t remove pain

  But it can make it more bearable.

  2023-11-13

  Poem, poetry

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• not about you

  My house is my comfort

  It should fit my needs

  I keep it up to my standards

  I don’t clean for guests

  I live in my body

  My asthetic is for me

  And clothe it as I please

  I don’t dress for strangers

  My behavior is my choice

  My choices may not work for you

  I have to live with my consequences

  And I don’t require your approval

  Sometimes my actions effect you

  And that is when you get to care

  But I still keep these boundaries 

  My life choices don’t disrespect you.

  2023-11-07

  Poem, poetry

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• decenter

  Why do you center yourself

  Speaking for us but not to us

  Give me back my words

  Don’t talk about me or for me

  Your ignorance is quickly seen

  But only by those in the know

  You try to gatekeep what I say

  Make up words to avoid what I am

  My learned experience rings true

  Even when you suppress my story.

  2023-10-31

  Poem, poetry

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• living my truth

  I’m not willing to lie anymore

  They like me hiding the real me

  It allowed them to be comfortable

  But it made me feel worse

  You don’t want to hear about my day

  Because my day involves pain

  You don’t want to hear what I feel

  My good attitude is back lit by pain

  If the real me was hateful

  Then maybe I’d understand

  But this is about social discomfort

  This is about disturbing truth

  I’m outspoken but introverted

  I’m employed and disabled

  I’m authentic with mental illness

  I’m not looking to fit your mold.

  2023-10-24

  Poem, poetry

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• wife left in the hospital

  In sickness and in health they say

  But it’s often a one sided promise

  We all agree boys run away

  Eager to escape emotional burden

  But men are no better at sticking it out

  When a woman needs support

  Men feel they’re in the right to leave

  If a woman can’t serve her role

  Husbands don’t stay to be caregivers

  If a wife becomes a burden

  Chronic illness is a dealbreaker.

  2023-10-17

  Poem, poetry

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• skewed by suspicion

  Why do you have expectations

  Of how health should look or act

  You don’t live in my symptoms

  Health isn’t linear and we aren’t twins

  Who taught you to doubt me

  To question a wheelchair or cane

  Eager to catch me in the act

  Of some malingering performance

  Why am I guilty until proven innocent

  Your view is skewed by suspicion

  Outright assuming I must be lying

  Making it up to gain attention

  Who wants to living in this picture

  Putting on a long con for strangers

  Getting all this negative attention

  Living outside socially acceptable

  Why do you think you are special

  That I’m makings it up for you

  That you know the ultimate truth

  That you know me better than me.

  2023-10-10

  Poem, poetry

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• Medicine exists for healthy people

  Doctors goal is to get people healthy

  So when faced with chronic illness

  A complicated patient they can’t fix

  Once their diagnosis is complete

  And they’ve handed out treatment

  Even if the symptoms are still present

  They wash their hands of us

  Doctors aren’t here for wholistic care

  Few are excited by a long term puzzle

  The puzzle of confusing symptoms

  And rounds of inconclusive tests

  They default to psychosomatic

  They outsource the care of emotion

  That is the role of a psychiatrist

  Doctors want to conquer health

  Not hear a frustrated patient

  With never ending symptoms

  They want to be the hero

  But after multiple appointments

  It’s easier to label malaise

  Than admit their failure.

  2023-10-03

  Poem, poetry

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• not up or down

  My morality isn’t vertical

  You are not better than me 

  And I am not better than you

  We are both worthy

  And no one is undeserving

  No onehad to tell me this

  I was born knowing it

  My ethics are horizontal.

  2023-09-26

  Poem, poetry

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• crazy cat lady

  In a roundabout way

  I traded my married life

  For the title crazy cat lady

  The traditional role

  Was sold as happiness

  But didn’t give me security

  So understand, I don’t regret

  Giving up my faithless husband

  As marriage was no guarantee

  I am more myself

  Thriving as a spinster

  Because I didn’t give up on me.

  2023-09-19

  Poem, poetry

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• only the old and sick die

  A global pandemic comes

  And the takeaway is eugenics

  Long as the masses can survive

  It’s okay for the old and sick to die

  The public prefers simple comfort

  Don’t want to hear downer statistics

  Don’t want a mask or a vaccine

  Sure, you might get long covid

  You might kill your family or friends

  But a party is worth the gamble

  Mass spreader events are more fun.

  2023-09-12

  Poem, poetry

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• external judgement

  Carrying around all that judgment

  It has to be a weighty burden

  So much to disapprove and disdain

  Must be a heavy arsenal to bear

  I’m sorry the dagger in your eyes

  Bounce off of my lack of caring

  Hate leaking from your gaze

  Will never be able to touch me

  Because I’m not invested in you

  The same as you’re effected by me.

  2023-09-05

  Poem, poetry

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• quiet quit is my baseline

  The way they exploit you

  Is the reason they won’t hire me

  When you work all those unpaid hours

  When you give above and beyond

  I can’t live up to that expectation

  You hustle to get a possible raise

  I’m struggling to give what’s required

  You network with all the right people

  I stand out because of my limitations

  Exploitation isn’t fair to either of us

  Our worth isn’t in dollars and cents

  You can quiet quit and still have a job

  I’m lucky they’re not looking for cause

  I wish you would act your wage.

  2023-08-29

  Poem, poetry

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• approval after the fact

  If you hear my story

  And then you feel for me

  Where was your compassion

  When you saw me as the villain?

  Why do I have to explain

  That life is hard and traumatic

  For you to try and understand me

  What does that say about you?

  If you think strange is awful

  And difference is unacceptable 

  You are always going to judge me

  You will still want to change me

  If I haven’t hurt you

  And I’m not out to harm you

  Then I’m not the one who’s wrong

  My compassion isn’t conditional.

  2023-08-21

  Poem, poetry

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• burnt flavor

  Idle lips seek my ears

  An exchange of vicious banter

  Cringe isn’t just in what you do

  It’s also in what you splatter

  I avoid the burnt flavor you bring

  As you season the world bitter

  I can seek a sweeter taste

  Avoid the twisted taste you deliver

  Your art can be a saucy critique 

  A smug feeling that you’re better

  While I enjoy my grateful life

  Writen in a complimentary letter.

  2023-08-15

  Poem, poetry

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• resigned to pride

  My frenemy, disability

  This is my uninvited guest

  A squatter in my body

  My long term companion

  It can come at any time

  And no one is safe

  You may not know it’s there

  And it’s rarely predictable

  Nearly impossible to get rid of

  Even making it behave is a struggle

  So we adjust where we can

  An suffer through the rest

  Yes I’ve come to accept it

  I’m even proud I love with it

  But that doesn’t mean I like it

  Or that anyone else should want it.

  2023-08-07

  Poem, poetry

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• not the real you

  I don’t know you

  Because you don’t want me to

  You hide away the real you

  Behind what others expect

  Your performance is perfected

  The person you think I want

  You were trained well to hide

  But I can see your walls are up

  It’s not for lack of my trying

  Showing an active interest

  Grilling you like an interview

  Trying to coax you out

  You’re not evading my disdain

  If you were to be real with me

  It’d be no different than now

  I definitely don’t like the fake you.

  2023-08-01

  Poem, poetry

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• discrete annoyance

  My annoyance is not your business

  These are my private thoughts

  And thoughts can be unfair

  They can be stupid and pointless

  They may have nothing to do with you

  They can disappear in an instant

  Your annoyance is not my business

  You are allowed your feelings

  You deserve your privacy

  You can decide which battles you fight

  Or choose to forgive my flaws

  Your silence is yours to keep

  Dare I suggest for us both

  Fleeting frustration isn’t of value

  It might just be a passing spark

  Until that spark turns to flame

  Until the flame is unavoidable 

  It might be better to let it go.

  2022-11-01

  Poem, poetry

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• no nice guys

  Nice men aren’t real

  Because nice is a performance

  It’s an act to make us comfortable

  Following the rules of a social script

  Kind men play a different game

  They don’t hide behind polite

  They can be blunt and direct

  As they deliver their compassion

  Because kind isn’t a transaction

  Kind isn’t always nice or easy

  It can have boundaries and be akward

  But give me a kind man anyday

  I much prefer that over a nice guy.

  2022-10-24

  Poem, poetry

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• loose lady bits

  My pussy is used and experienced

  When it’s excited it’s slippery

  It understands pleasure

  My twat isn’t young or virginal

  It isn’t like unopened package

  Inexperience isn’t my game

  Let me be clear, tight is painful

  So why is a woman’s displeasure

  The ideal that men must aim?

  2022-10-18

  Poem, poetry

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• personal space

  Imagine my skin is barbed wire

  There are spikes on my shoulder

  Cactus pins at the base of my back

  Treat me like I’m dangerous to touch

  Like you need expert tools

  My body isnt a public space

  It’s not freely open to strangers 

  This is a private club, key required

  Wait for permission to enter

  If you refuse the rule of consent

  Then I want nothing to do with you

  Give me the chance to invite you

  And I’ll consider your application.

  2022-10-10

  Poem, poetry

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• poetry

  Poems are just wild thoughts

  Ideas we forgot to keep to ourselves

  Perception roaming outside our mind

  We share our words with abandon

  Hoping someone else will see us.

  2022-10-04

  Poem, poetry

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• noobs don't know

  It’s tiring saying the same thing

  Over and over and over again

  Leading others through their journey

  When we already learned that lesson

  We had to do it the hard way

  We had to do it without hand holding

  We resent making it easy for others

  Inviting means emotional labor

  It requires patience and kindness

  But that is the way we pass it on

  One conversation at a time

  Repeating the same old mantra

  That’s how we keep ourselves true

  And how we change the world.

  2022-09-19

  Poem, poetry

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• we fight to fight

  Put us in a room

  Activists and advocates

  A group of strong willed people

  Opinionated and passionate 

  And expect a fight

  We start out fighting the world

  But when the world won’t listen

  We fight amongst ourselves

  Because warriors don’t wait 

  We will find a war to win

  Even if that war take us down.

  2022-08-15

  Poem, poetry

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• elusive and elite

  Being an expert is exclusive

  It means you know fancy words

  A language specific to your expertise 

  But the culture of competition

  Means expertise is not inviting

  It’s treated like a private club

  If you haven’t paid your dues

  Proving your worth in words

  Then you are effectively shut out

  The elite don’t want to guide you

  They don’t want to make it easy

  Knowledge is secret and selective

  Taking the time to translate is tiring

  When experts wail about mass stupidity

  Bemoaning request to dumb it down

  They seem to forget the part they played

  Making their knowledge unaccessable

  When they used fancy words to smarten it up.

  2022-08-08

  Poem, poetry

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• jaded old lady

  I don’t envy the young

  Romance alive in their hearts

  Full of ideals and blind faith

  Believing the lies we’re told

  The young don’t envy me

  Jaded by years of experience 

  Unable to escape our human failings

  Seeing through the lies we’re sold

  We live on different sides of age

  I don’t think humans can have both

  The naievete and hope of youth

  The practical wisdom of being old.

  2022-08-02

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• you are not me

  we are us, as in more than one

  but you is you, and I is I

  we are not I, and you is not I

  don’t confuse you with me

  as I know me better

  And you know you better

  and we only know the little

  that you or I decide to share

  between us.

  2022-07-26

  Poem, poetry

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• intrusive thoughts

  Drowning in my own tea

  A shallow pool to fall into

  I brewed my own destruction

  Because my face can’t swim

  I forgo the sugar and milk

  Brush aside a useless cup

  Spill a pool into the saucer

  And dive in with mouth wide

  A dramatic pause of held breath

  It was a random thought, not intent

  An uninvited image in my head

  Instead of an inhale, I suck

  Slurping up my internal drama

  I know I can’t breath that leafy water

  And I wouldn’t choose to choke

  Tip the saucer up to finish my drink

  My tea is done, the image gone

  Now back to acting normal.

  2022-07-19

  Poem, poetry

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• loud silence

  The voice in my head is so loud

  With so many things to say

  Things I leave painfully unspoken

  With every passing day

  The world doesn’t welcome my words

  When they contradict the norm

  My mouth stays tight and silent

  As words spoken would lead to a storm

  As I bind my words away

  Convinced silence protects me

  Am I leaving others to suffer

  By denying them our community

  Cowardice and self-preservation

  Are siblings of the same fame

  I don’t know what is truly right

  But I live quietly, all the same.

  2022-07-12

  Poem, poetry

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• trustworthiness

  An elusive thing, trust

  Sometimes fragile gift 

  Sometimes stuborn blindness

  Sometimes trained by suspicion 

  So easy to break and hard to repair

  We expect it even when we destroy it

  It comes with conditions and expectation

  With all our internal failings and flaws

  Is it human to trust or even be trustworthy?

  2022-07-05

  Poem, poetry

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• style of kindness

  As you stand in the distance

  Your sight is offended

  You declare I am rude

  You simply do not approve

  You know a better way to be

  But I’ve only embarrassed myself

  Standing seperate from the crowd

  Being awkward or wierd or cringy

  Whether close or seperate from you

  Those things are mine to be

  Why does it matter so much

  Others perceptions as they see

  How am I hurting the world

  What am I inficting on you

  What does your derrise do for me

  Maybe I should have an opinion of you

  Judging other is a terrible accessory

  You should wear more compassion 

  If you want to truly be in style

  Focus on you, instead of criticizing me.

  2022-06-28

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• No replacing lived experience

  An exercise in school

  They put me in a blindfold

  An attempt to educate

  It was like a backstage pass

  I got to peek behind the curtain

  A brief glimpse into another life 

  But there was no length in my stay

  Removing the blindfold returned my sight

  Years later I dated a blind man

  He was into judo, I had chronic fatigue

  Both disabled but in such different ways

  I had vision and he had energy

  We told each other our stories 

  We were close as partners can be

  But I could only know what he told me

  He couldn’t know what my insides feel like

  No words can replace lived experience.

  2022-06-21

  Poem, poetry

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• hot consent

  Don’t pull my hair

  And slap me with a silly grin

  That’s called assault, not flirting

  No one is owed intimacy

  Bodies aren’t land to be conquered 

  Touch without consent is an invasion

  Boys are only boys

  When no one calls them out

  We all know the subtle cues of pain

  Girls understand civil behavior

  Why are men allowed explosive emotion

  As women suppress their tears

  Guys don’t like these new rules

  Maybe time for some castration laws

  Maybe dicks can be public property, too.

  2022-06-14

  Poem, poetry

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• The lie of doctor patience

  Doctors are taught that patients lie

  So, they don’t believe what I tell them

  Because I don’t fit into what they believe

  If my experience contradicts their knowledge

  Then they deem my experience wrong

  So, I bend the truth to fit into their narrative

  Much like I hide my pain from the public

  And I try not to overburden my loved ones

  I tell the doctor what they want to hear

  I minimize my story, focus on right now

  No muddy mention of my past

  No curiosity of my own condition

  I hide my education and persistence

  I let the doctor solve the mystery alone

  So they can win at the puzzle of me.

  2022-06-07

  Poem, poetry

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• Doctors make me cry

  Anxious, I arrive at the appointment 

  I want to believe it will be different

  Maybe they won’t dismiss me

  Maybe they’ll listen this time

  Afterwards, I sit in the car and cry

  Because they’re so predictable 

  Medical school teaches them we lie

  Insurance decide how they can help

  And I don’t fit their medical model

  I’m a complicated case

  With too many ongoing symptoms

  So I only go when it’s bad

  When my symptoms are acute

  Because I need them to believe me

  Because sick is my everyday

  But my truth is never enough

  It doesn’t convince their authority 

  I walk away dissatisfied 

  Tears crashing down from my eyes.

  2022-05-31

  Poem, poetry

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• I survived today

  Some days life hurts

  And today included pain

  In a terrible wave it hit me

  It was awful and it overwhelming 

  I suffered with eyes closed

  A moment felt like forever

  I thought it might never end

  But then the wave passed

  And it still hurt, but less so

  I was grateful for the smaller pain

  And eager for the end of today

  Because tommorow is a new day

  Because some days life doesn’t hurt.

  2022-05-24

  Poem, poetry

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• not my potential

  It’s not our job to see potential in others

  We are not tasked with improving them

  If they didn’t ask to be mentored

  Or request our guidance in changing

  It’s not fair to mold them to our expectation

  To try and change someone for our needs

  The belief that manipulation can be good

  That we are doing what’s best for them

  Thats stealing their chance to choose

  Abusing throught lies and obfuscation 

  They deserve to make their own mistakes

  To be autonomous in their decision

  To be a person that doesn’t serve our needs

  Growth and evolution is a personal journey

  Only I can choose to change me

  And they should get the same oportunity.

  2022-05-16

  Poem, poetry

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• Speaking freely

  I let my tongue wag loose

  Free to say whatever it wants

  I speak comfortably and confidently 

  You can be impressed by my esteem

  Or you can recognize my folly

  Sometimes I make a fool of myself 

  I mess up what I’m trying to say

  I say things in a very wrong way

  That us the cost of a free tongue

  Actions have consequences 

  And my tounge lives with regrets.

  2022-05-10

  Poem, poetry

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• cruel animal

  Humans are born with

  Compassion and kindness

  So how do we lose them

  Where do they go

  Is it a lack of nurture

  Or the harsh lessons of life

  Removing our nature of care

  Turning us into jaded adults

  We end up keeping pain alive

  Passing on perceived harm

  We nurture the worst part of us

  We can be such cruel animals.

  2022-05-03

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• The body I have

  I could envy a healthy body and sound mind

  But I’d have to make up a story

  A fiction of what it must be like

  Because I’ve never had those things

  I don’t want to pine away for the imagined

  What is the value in such fantasy

  Snake oil salesmen may claim otherwise

  But there’s no path to an easy cure

  This is the body I was born to and live in

  I’ve spent a lifetime learning my limitations

  I may be curious about another experience

  To be in a body that does what is expected

  But I refuse to live with envy

  I refuse to imagine myself into hate.

  2022-04-26

  Poem, poetry

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• unsolicited opinion

  Your opinion is an uninvited guest

  I didn’t open the door for you to say anything

  Don’t sneak it in as a compliment

  Or an underhanded attempt to share

  Acting like you’re all white picket fences

  Next to my abandoned fixer upper

  I’m not looking to get your buy in

  My life isn’t an open house

  I’m not looking to buy your wares

  My face is a no solicitors sign

  So, stop being a nosy neighbor

  We certainly don’t live on the same street

  Because I don’t barge into random houses

  I focus on my own life, I tend my own house

  If I want an opinion, if I’m looking for advice,

  Give me the chance to ask for it.

  2022-04-19

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• identity first

  Policing my language

  When I speak of my identity

  Is simply unacceptable 

  The culture may decree

  Whatever it wants about words

  But I decree what is true for me

  You may think you know better

  But I get to choose what I call myself

  If you can dare to listen to my words

  If you decide to respect my choice

  I might believe your trying to understand

  I might believe you care about I.

  2022-04-11

  Poem, poetry

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• Curiosity Denied

  Curiosity liked to stroll the streets

  Eager to know their neighbors

  One days Curosity noticed a new house

  Privacy was out mowing its lawn

  Privacy saw earnest Curiosity in the distance 

  Privacy went inside and drew the curtains

  Curiosity rushed to the unfamilar door

  Curiosity turned the knob, but it was locked

  Curiosity was used to strolling in, uninvited

  But Curiosity was also a bit of a flake

  And once interest warned, Curiosity left

  Other neighbors coped in their own ways

  Intimacy didn’t find Curiosity reliable

  Often annoyed by their inconsistancy

  Curiosity didn’t really respect Boundaries

  Even when Boundaries built a gate

  Curiosity just climbed right over it

  So now Boundaries avoided Curiosity

  But Privacy was new and interesting

  Curiosity called out, pounding at the door

  Privacy persistently didn’t answer

  Curiosity got louder, demanding to be let in

  Night rolled in and finally Curiosity left

  In the dark of night, Privacy stepped outside

  Boundaries walked down the dim street

  Boundaries stopped in eyesight of Privacy

  Boundaries waited for Privacy to wave

  A bit later, Intimacy walked down the street

  Privacy looked for Boundaires blessing

  Feeling reassured, Privacy waved at Intimacy

  Standing outside, in companionable silence,

  They felt bad about excluding Curiosity

  But not bad enough to invite Curiosity over

  So the three new friends went inside

  And Privacy locked the door behind them.

  2022-04-05

  Poem, poetry

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• Doctors are the villian in my story

  As a kid, I coughed until I threw up my dinner

  Screamed from painful ear infections

  Spend school lunch in the nurses office

  Wet my pants heading for the toilet

  As a preteen, they sent me to a psychiatrist

  To sort out my runny nose and cough

  The psychiatrist told me to “do better”

  To stop making my mom’s life hard

  As a teen, the truant officer came to the door

  Mom told me to go to school achy

  The school wouldn’t take her notes anymore

  Wait until the nurses office sent me home

  As an adult, my boss told me to show up

  Coworkers got mad when I came to work sick

  Doctor wrote me a note with an end date

  But I was still sick when I returned to work

  I’m old now and Doctors blame my age

  To few symptoms and they ignore me

  To many symptoms and they dismiss me

  If I wait too long to visit they shame me

  What I’ve learned is that doctors make me cry

  I don’t expect to be healthy anytime soon

  But I’m pretty good at surviving while ill 

  Expert level at hiding my sick.

  2022-03-29

  Poem, poetry

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