I find people exhausting
Not dislike, genuine fatigue
How to cultivate friendship
When I have chronic illness
The best types of friends
Are not demanding
Don’t have expectations
My whole life is planned
My body doesn’t cooperate
So I don’t get to be free wheeling
They say friends should be fun
But I’m not fun
Can’t even always be supportive
Because I can’t always be present
So I’m a loner out of necessity
And I don’t fight for more
Everyday is already a battle
Don’t need to lament
what I’ve never had.
